Enough with the vagina monologue.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Okay. If you are a frequent visitor to my fb page, you'd know by now that my cat (the black/gray/white one) has gone out of the house at 6 45 yesterday morning and hasn't returned since then.
I am flustered, distraught and worried about its safety. I have mixed feelings right now. I'm worried because it hasn't had its breakfast lunch nor dinner yesterday, and I just cannot get the image of it cowering under some car/flowerpot/bicycle at some random block, hungry cold and dirty. Then there's another side of me, that keeps thinking that this is normal. Perfectly common for cats to go out, and return a few days later. But how much of it is true? I have no idea.
I learnt that I am very overprotective over things that matter to me. Take for instance my cat. I NEVER let it roam freely (and I don't blame my mother for letting it out of the house yesterday morning...), fearing for its safety and possible death. I also realised that I'm overprotective of my brother. He's just started secondary 1 in Damai, and here I am telling him to watch out for sharks and such, advising him to be really careful with whom he makes friends with. I cannot shake off the feeling that he's naive and susceptible to influences, no matter how hard I try. Ironically, I know I'm being overprotective, but I choose to not do anything about it.
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You know, sitting at the mosque waiting for friday prayers is an excellent time for self reflection. I've been doing it frequently of late, and I discovered something anooying about the fabric of human nature.
How often is it that we say sorry? Why is it that we say sorry?
If your answer for the questions were "Almost all the time" and " Because we have to when we do something wrong", then its about time you got a reality check, girlfriend.
You see, "sorry" is no longer the hardest word here in Singapore. Saying "Sorry" is like sex. Do it too many times over and it instantaneously becomes obsolete. There's no meaning to the word anymore."sorry" this, "sorry" that. We bump onto people, we say "sorry" out of civility. We say it to make ourselves feel better of our accidental mishaps and such. We do, however, say "sorry" in showing our empathy or giving our condolences, in which case it is still valid. But the more common usage of the word has become part of our daily lives, and is an involuntary reflex that we cannot help but do. Just like farting for some people, screaming when desperate for atention and googling their names every so often.
For the second question, the whole " ...when we do something wrong..." bit, is just lame. If you realise that you've done a mistake, you wouldn't want to do it again right? I mean, only a mad person would do the same thing over and over again, expecting different results each time. So, if you are doing something wrong every second of your life, then I'd suggest you either go to school(about time you started enrolling in one) or jump off the edge of the Empire State Building.
So people, the next time you desperately need to say "sorry", get creative with it. Say something like "Pardon me", "Oh dear lord, my mistake" or just go ghetto and say "Hey yo beeyatch! Watch it, or I'ma bust your cranky ass wit ma own two hands!"
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I think that this post has gotten a little too long. I'm sorry if you're dead or nearing death now.
Truly,
Hunni.
