Lets's pretend it didn't happen in 2009.
Right about now, I'm still thinking of what my future holds for me. This may sound like a very sad ending to 2009, and that I am lamenting about the joys and despairs of this heck of a year. I am really worried about my future. Where should I go after this? Or better yet, can I even go anywhere? I'm afraid of underperforming for this year's A levels. That's the problem with me. I always think that I am in trouble. Paranoia never fails to cause misery in my life. I'm also thinking of the courses that I would apply for in University. Here's some of my decisions thus far (may not look logical, mind you):
Yeah. That's basically it, really. They have been ringing in my head for a while now... Except number 2, which is relatively new. More like 7 minutes ago sort of new. So yeah, that's my problem. Hopefully I'm not the only one...
Moving on.
Now lets get down to some serious business.
The year 2009. This year has held many surprises (both good and bad) for me. There's the good surprises that never fails to fascinate me, like HIG, and USP. And then there's the bad surprises that almost never fail to annoy me, like
things that I cannot think of right now because I don't think it's valid, and I just mentioned it to make this post look longer.Yet again, I managed to survive another year of torments from homophobes, jeers from irritating assholes and discrimination from those who think they're superior. I've grown stronger (psychologically speaking). My mother asked me this the other day:
Were you teased for being, you know, swishy, back then in secondary school?
My reply was simple. I said:
Well, it's their mouth, and I cannot stop them from doing what they want. Look at it this way. They make fun of me, say things and do all sorts of things that they think might annoy me, or weaken my will to achieve excellence, but at the end of the day, I'm still smarter than them.
I know it sounds very vain and annoying, but isn't it true? Now, when I say smart, I do not mean that I'm academically smarter (although that's a big duh), but I know karma will always bite them back. I get the good karma, by letting them have their fun, but they get the bad karma, for making fun of me.
BUT, WADEVS.
Their loss. Because I am freaking fabulous... :))
Disagree? Fuck off beeyatch...
The beginning of the year, I cemented a strong bond with many people, especially those in MLCS, and those in Msters. Our class spirit was not THAT strong yet back then. There were still some hatred for some people here and there, and arguments never fail to spark. But we lived through it.
Mid year.
Things started to get better, with people starting to enjoy the company of others. This doesn't apply only to 0802 of course. I meant MLCS, with the juniors around, and also MSTERS, like Visha and HIG. hahahaa. That girl is delirious!
End of Year.
A levels.
Forging of stronger bonds in the class.
People turning to each other for help.
My cynical side tend to question the sincerity of their friendship.
But my compassionate side always manage to put the smile on my face, and love these people.
So yeah. That's it I guess for 2009. Pretty happening year for me.
Oh, and not to mention my freedom to shop and meet up with past acquaintances.
People I would like to thank:
ATTP: For your constant support for whatever I do, for sharing your nonsense and fun filled crazy moments with me, and most importantly, being there for me whenever I need a fashion advice. I LOVE YA'LL.
Msters: The times where we sat in the canteen looking at example, HIG and Wayne Seq. For the laughter and fun. For everything that happened in NYJC. And not to mention the videos we made.
Other people in my life who knows me, but I cannot put your name here because there's too many of you:
For your company, your willingness to accept me into your social circle! :))
Truly,
Hunni.
Last post for 2009.
