I'm feling whoosie
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Well well well. It keeps coming on and off. What is it? THE POST EXAMS OUTINGS!!! First they say its on, then suddenly, its off. I'm not mad or anything, but I'm just a little disappointed when I can't see my friends. I mean, I do love them and all you know. I was excited for the whole of yesterday and this morning, until the dreadful sms came. I was all ready to go out, then i picked up my phone and saw 2 smses. I let out a little scream in my head, but maintained my composure. I just can't wait for next saturday. I don't care if there's the DNA and Genomics review test the week after next; I WANT TO SEE MY FRIENDS. I need a beacon of hope, and they really do provide it.
PANG-PANG
I had my RARE pangs yesterday. 2 of them, to be exact. First, I had an eye-opening-realisation-about-myself-pang, where I found that I am very resolute. I want things to go my way, at any costs. I'm a little worried that people might see me and stubborn and hard headed, but I just hate it when things don't go my way. When that happens, I will go into shutdown mode, where I'll be very emotional, and will have a very limited capacity for bullshit. Tick me off, and you'll regret it. Ironically I'll regret it a few seconds later. VERY weird, but it's my mental homeostatic mechanism.
The other pang I had was the I-want-to-compose-something-for-myself-to-read-pang. I totally got an inspiration from DH, when Edie died. It was so heartbreaking, and I decided to write my own version. I called it "An ending ulike any other". PURELY random, it was a very elaborate piece of work. I won't share it with you guys, since it's very private.
I'm feeling worried now. As i've mentioned in my previous post, I don't have that post exam feeling. Instead, I'm dreading every bit of what's to come. I shouldn't be feeling this, It's irritating. I won't go on about that part of my life.
MOVIES
Anyone watched A HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT lately? Awesome movie. Scary, scary awesome. It's BOATS(Based On A True Story). I'm not too keen in watching it at first, but my mum forced me to watch it with her, and I found it to be quite entertaining. It's not your average, cheeys, cliched and lame horror movie. There's no "funny" factor, unlike in Grudge and Drag Me To Hell(according to Dee). This movie keeps you at the edge of your seat, forcing you to hold on to your popcorn bucket(if you're in the theatres) or your pillow(if you're at home, or the theatres{the latter being very weird}). I won't tell you what it's about since I'm to lazy to write a review now. Besides, I forgot the storyline. MOVING ON.
FAT&FOOD
I feel fat. I tell my mum I'm fat, but she says I'm skinny. I mean, hello??? There's fats buldging all over my. And my neck, oh god. It's ginormous. I need to hit th etracks soon. VERY VERY SOON.
The school changed the canteen vendors again. Idot, I tell you. Just when I was falling in love with the food, they just had to change it. They only do this to the malay food stalls. I'm not sure why, but maybe because they think the malay food stalls provide unhealthy food. I'm not sure.
EXAM&RESULTS
I have an intense urge to know how i faired for the exams. After hearing what Visah said about how Mr N said that he'll slaughter them(V,S,A), I'm terrified of my results! I mean, Biology was the only topic which I'm counting on, since I really want to pursue it in University. I'm just worried. You may say, that this was only the Mid years, but I'm scared.
I'm not going to bother about math, because she didn't say anything prior to and after our exams. She didn' tget to meet us, so I'd rather remain ignorant about how we did. We'll be getting our math papers first thing on monday morning. Talk about a bad way to begin your week.
Chemistry was even worse. She went to our clas and said "0802, You better becareful ah..." What does that mean? It means that we did badly, and she's angry with us. I'm so dead.
CONCLUSION
Well, all that being said, I just want to apologise about the whole sms incident with Nas. I LOVE YOU NAS! :):):) And DEE, FAZ and HAIKAL!
Truly,
Hunni.
