Damn,
i'm having those feelings again.
whenever i meet them, i will have this feeling of nostalgia and obsession.
I'm feeling the exact same emotion i did when i was first enrolled into NY.
I got over it, but then it looks like they are back to stay.

What am i talking about?
well, i feel that i had just made the biggest mistake of my life.
I should have gone to Meridien JC.
I should have gone with my peeps from damai.
Nas, Faz and company.
well, mostly them both.
i hate this feeling.
i brings about this internal conflict in me.
it makes me question time and again,
If i had made the right decision.
maybe i'll live life like Cikgu Sahira,
living a life in JC which i will hate.
its very difficult for me.

As mentioned in my previous posts,
i recently discovered that i am a very emotional person.
i tend to get attached to someone or something,
and i will be extremely difficult to make me forget them or it.
and when i do forget them or it,
they or it comes back to me,
in one way or another.
damn it

Obsession is a very powerful poison,
for it eats you from the inside.
i now understand why i am jealous towards Nizam, who is faz's new 'bitch partner', supposedly.
I'm not willing to let any of my friends go.
when i heard that Nizam was Faz's new BP,
i was kinda jealous.
it's as though your best friend left you for another best friend...
Gay huh?
well deal with it.
Me and Faz has been friends for like forever,
and when we got separated during the educational crossroads,
i felt like a part of me went missing.
it's as if Faz took it away with it.
i soon realised that it was the nonsense and fun that he brought into my life.
Well, this might sound gay, but Fazari is a friend that you cannot buy for even a milion bucks.
That is, if i am the one selling him.
If he's selling himself, then he would have left when the bid was as low as 10 bucks.
hahaha...
you see what i mean?
its these insults and bitchy shenanigans that make me look forward to life in Damai.
But now,
its boring.
It's not only Faz,
but shafienas also brought abundant laughter into my life.
Her actions, right down to the way she speaks,
strikes the chords of humour anytime of the day.
i guess what i'm trying to say is,
I AM NOT GOING TO LIKE MY JC YEARS!
THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN SAY OR DO TO CHANGE MY MIND!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


lets move on to a more positive note shall we?

We Just Had Our DAMAI DRAMA CAMP!
haha...
it was great fun!
me, Faz, Nas, Kel, Diy and Kas were back,
and we were better than ever!
we planed the nightwalk,
and for the activities after their dinner.
it was superbly great fun.
we arrived in school at about 9, and we immediately went on with bringing down the house.
the drama peeps weren't there cuz they were out at ECP.
so we kinda dominated the whole school for the whole day.
OR SO WE THOUGHT.
little that we knew that we were gonna share the same school and sleeping area with the accursed RUGBY BOYS.
damn they are assholes.
anyway,
we were super uptight with WHOEVER IT WAS WHO PLACED THE CAMPS TOGETHER ON THE SAME DAY...
^dunnoe who...but better say your prayers...for dunnoe wad lah..^
So we were planning the games, one by one,
and before we knew it,
we were done in about 1.5 hours.
The power of creativity, discipline and proper time management.
we went off for lunch at about 12++.
and we went to shop for the stuffies we needed for our night walk.
damn , i tell you,
the night walk was awesome.
well, at least the plan did.
thus far, then.
diy bought the flower that...erm...xavier should know.
anyway,
we went off to school,
and then we continued to finish up our nightwalk plans.
we practically spent the whole day thinking of flowery poetic stuff for the nightwalk,
and we did it! ...after 6 hours.
but hey, we did it.
we went to put up the stuff at 11++,
and we were super late, cos the people were getting extremely tired ans restless after a tiring day at ECP.
we went to our stations,
and to my surprise, 4th storey boy's toilet near the classrooms weren't that scary after all!
me and kassim were stationed there,
and we were joking the whole way through.
but the first half of the nightwalk didn't seem scary,
cuz the councillors switched the lights on,
and they did that along the route that they were supposed to walk by.
How inconsiderate.
well, there were lots of hilarious things that happened there,
and here are some of them!

1) Jason. he went with another guy, and he, being the bigger sized one,
should have the decency to go inside the toilet first.
Plus, he is the older one between the 2.
he was like ''you go inside, you go first''
me and kassim were laughing like crazy.
the silly thing is that we were supposed to run to the classrooms when they have gone inside the toilet, and CLOSE THE DOOR. but then the smart Jason held the door open, so me and kas cudnt run off.
oh btw, we were standing behind a wall outside the toilet.
so we improvised.
we stood behind the wall, and looked as dead as we could.
the funny thing was that when jason saw us standing there, HE SCREAMED! then the boy he was with said this, ''WOW, this is the first time i hear you scream eh...''
paisehh!
haha

2) There was a clue outside the toilet door,
stating that they must knock 3 times before entering. there was the toilet for normal people, and a handicap toilet next to it.
the clue was placed outside the normal boy's toilet.
the stupid thing was that some people actually asked themselves in the dark,
''KNOCK 3 TIMES, WHY MUST KNOCK?''
''eeee, so dark. i scared, you go first ah.''
'' Which toilet? this one or the one next to it? Oh maybe its the one on the other side of he bulding!!!''
''Ok lah, we go in together. 1 2 3 AHHH! i duwwan go in... you go first...''
''eh, boy's toilet, girls cannot go in. sorry''

Me and kass were laughing our asses out behind that wall.
haix..good times...
then after that, police came down,
cuz we were making too much noises...
nonsense. we were told to go to sleep,
but us beung us, and we being alumni,
we didn't.
we ordered McD,
and ate the whole morning through.
we did a couple of radio whoring,
and then at abt 5 am,
me and Diy fell asleep.
fazz and nas just looked at us sleeping
then fazz feel asleep.
nas was alone.
she took her new camera and took pictures of stuffs, until it was 7.
then we woke up,
showered and then ate breakfast.
then we slacked till 12, and went home.
fun man.


I think that is all for now.
i seriously need to go to bed.

Gnite now!