Sombre...Ro?
Monday, April 7, 2008
It has only been a few weeks here in NY
Yet i am already getting this feeling that i would't like it here.
with the people in the class, and the school,
man, i'm dazed.
Im again in the library, waiting for my malay lesson which starts at four.
i attended the Speech Day(SD) in Damai sec last saturday,
and i gotta tell you this.
If you feel that getting out of damai ASAP is good,
think again.
Honestly, i feel that the four years i spent in Damai are the best four years of my life.
now being in a new school and environment,
it's been hard for me to adapt.
No best friends, No reliable buddy, and no one to lean on or count on.
That day during SD,
i was super happy to actually see my friends again.
being in Damai again.
seeing the teachers there again.
i really missed those days...
back when tie was an everyday thing,
latecoming was never an issue for me,
no bus rides,
the council,
and most importantly,
the Drama Club.
Although i didn't get to see the people,
getting a chance to talk to Ms Sahira was great.
when we were sitting in the hall,
waiting for the principal and GOH to finish addressing us,
we were spendin most of the time chit chatting,
catching up on things,
gossiping about the students in other colleges,
and the teachers in Damai that were transferred out.
How can they transfer Miss Decotta out??!?!!
may be it was on her own accord,
but still...
damn it...
when i was talking to the other people i didn't know existed in Damai,
but who were also prize winners,
I felt the bonding and the family-ness of the people.
especially when we cheered for one another when they got up on stage to receive their award.
For once, i felt proud of my friends,
and myself.
After SD,
me , Fazz and Nas went to KFC to eat.
there,
we talked about alot of things,
like school,
and friends.
they had alot of things to talk about.
but when they asked me if i had any stories,
i didn't say anything.
why?
because there is certainly nothing interesting HERE to talk about.
Deep down inside,
i actually feel jealous of fazz and naz,
for having each other in MJC.
they asked me why i didn't go to MJC.
well,
i think i should have gone there...
i wasn't practicing self-determination back then.
i made a huge mistake in my life...
HUGE.
wrong school...
maybe...maybe not?
I miss my friends dearly ...
and i would give anything
in return for them.
damn it...
damn it...
damn it...
